Why I am Scared to Graduate

I am not in school to hide from facing the pressures of seeking real employment and working for a horrible boss. In fact, I am in school to improve my position and increase my earning potential. The hard work doesn't scare me, and working with difficult people don't either. I have already done some of the most difficult work, and dealt the most difficult people. I have been preparing my entire life to enter a competative workforce.

I have chosen a field of study that I enjoy: finance. There are always more complicated equations and derivates to learn, and it forces you to keep up on current events. My career will make me a well informed citizen, participating in economic events and debates. If I do my job right, I can influence many people, from big to small, higher class and lower, for better and for worse. Why is there reason to be scared?

School has conditioned me to short term goals. These classes last only a few months, then new ones start. My most distant goal was to graduate. Graduation is getting closer. What is the next goal? Owning a house? Kids? Retirement? I'm not sure, and without these defined goals, I'm afraid that work will just become work.
After school, will their be a life changing climax to work forward too. My career may be exciting, but will I have already reached the pinnacle of my life?

This boredom scares me.

Time for Recess

The more I ponder the worlds problems, the more I am convinced that there is no excuse for being jobless. If you find yourself stuck, you can always go mow somebody's lawn, rake somebody's leaves, shovel somebody's sidewalk clean of snow. Essentially, necessity is the mother of invention. If you need to provide for yourself, you can create your own income.
The problem is many have not prepared for the adventure. When the opportunity come knocking, or you suddenly find yourself without a job, you just can't find the courage and smarts to put on that entrepreneur hat.
Our society doesn't want to do anything for themselves. We need to rely on others to provide jobs for us. This is the reason for the so-called recession. This moment of thriftiness, of higher financial standards, or efficiency and effectiveness is not a recession, it's the manifestation of our laziness. Companies are spending less and saving more, and it is an equal healthy balance to their revenue. Those who lost their jobs are victims to the inflated spending of 90's. Now is the time to make a difference and create your own income for a fresh era of new ideas.

Humble Thy Self

Job searching can snatch the pride right out of you.
I have had jobs who's main purpose was to handle the public. I have been a manager at a pizza store, and a customer service representative at a restaurant/bakery. I have been the person that takes the time to listen to the problems and attempt to solve them in a way where both the customer and company will benefit. I have been the one who has to apologize for events and actions out of my control, to make sure the customer has been heard and leaves happy.
This system is not wrong. But whatever company you work for, the customers are always more well off than you. At least that's how I have been ingrained to perceive it. Let's face it, I can't go out to eat or order pizza. Business's customers have to have money, or there would be no business. And employees don't have money, or they wouldn't be employees. This balance, when I am job searching, makes me feel uncomfortable.
I feel like when I apply for a job, I appear desperate, like I am at the end of my rope, like I need this to continue living. This is never the case, but the design of the application says, "you can't handle making your own resume, so just fill this out." When the interview happens, it's just as bad. They may ask, "What position are you looking for?"... "anything you have available." They know they have the upper hand, and you have to astound them with your groveling and begging. You never get a job from a poor man, and when you do, you have to submit to their will.
I can probably find a little of this in any employment position. I just need to find a good balance where I can be proud of the work I do, without being degraded.